Yes, it’s hard to concentrate on anything else with an anxiety disorder. Especially if you fear something inevitable (like me).
And I’m glad you agree on my opinion about our school system! Many people think I’m overreacting or weird because of my views. But I stand my ground.
A starling? Quiet sheep?
*skeptically glares at Bryan Fuller*
If you don’t strategically eat your food so that the last bites to go in your mouth are the tastiest look at your choices
House Sparrow (female) ~ Haussperling (Henne) ~ Passer domesticus
2014 © Jesse Alveo
Yay, more questions! :) Thank you!
4. What do you love about yourself?
Well, it’s almost impossibly to manipulate me. But it has it’s downsides… especially if you need psychological help.
22. Do you believe in fate/destiny?
I’m agnostic… and sometimes I think something is meant to be. But I don’t think we are just puppets in a weird game.
34. Favorite hair color?
Oh, black! I adore black hair. No, really, it’s a unhealthy.
35. Favorite eye color?
Dark brown. ^^ And there are people with black and dark grey eyes… that’s breathtaking.
Thank you, darling! :)
10. How do you spend your free time?
I’ve anxiety disorders, so I try to distract myself with really intense stuff (like making an adventurous tour through forests) or watching/reading/writing tough scenes or I try to relax. Do nothing. Sadly, the anxiety is usually stronger than me and then I lost myself in weird, unhealthy thoughts. My ideal free time would be out in the nature or looking at beautiful, old buildings (I adore architecture), though.
21. How do you feel about the school system?
Ha! I could write a book about this. In fact, I really intend to so. I’m an anarchist, freethinker through and through and I loathe coercion. And the school system in Germany is extra shitty. But… I certainly like things and the general idea of school. I would have really enjoyed it, if it wasn’t for the class mates and the goddamn coercion. I love to educate myself about nearly everything and I adore people who know tons of things about a certain subject. And I think we are sometimes to harsh with the teachers, but I wish they would understand that we are being forced to listen to them.
And that’s the main problem. Sure, if we want to live with the civilisation, we need to know some things, but we downright slay our children with information. But it could be so much fun, even exicting! Children should be passionate about the things they learn, not stressed-out. And it shouldn’t be a competition, jfc. A person who cannot read, count, or work is still just as much worth than everyone else.
The most important thing: we should have the opportunity to choose what we want to know and being able to do. There are so many fields of knowledge which are almost completely ignored in school. And there isn’t just one way to live. School taught me that life isn’t supposed to be fun at all. But where’s the sense in that? We are more than working machines.
So, schools could be awesome and I don’t think all students suffer, but so many do. Kids and teens feel destroyed by school. I still need therapy because of school. And this has to end.
Thank you! ^-^
20. Are we raised into what we love, or do we come to love it based on how we were raised?
It says we desire what we have to watch everyday and we love what is with us everyday (not necessary “physically” with us). Well, that’s not really the answer, but for me it’s the thing about love I can understand.
But I think it can go both ways. Love takes time, imo, and sometimes love is a great deal of habit and/or nice experiences and memories. (Especially family and home) It has to sink in.
26. Do humans matter—tiny specs on a floating piece of rock in a solar 27. system in a galaxy in an infinite universe?
Haha, that’s a funny question for an agnostic person! I really like to see the world as “Gaia”, an organism who works with and needs everything that’s a part of it. But it’s possible to see the human race as a mutation and a sickness… Maybe we are like bacteria gone wild.
No, I don’t think we matter that much. As it says - the universe is so unbelievable gigantic, it’s a bit daring to say that we are something important. But we matter to us. We have, after all, a very strong survival instinct and we can’t emerge and live without other humans. And maybe that’s all of it.